Wednesday, April 9, 2014
The wrong generation
I seriously think I was born to the wrong generation.
Not to insult the time I am in, but I wish I was born during the time when writing was something you were talented in, not a crash course you could take in a day.
Everything seems to have a manual these days, everything has rules, everything has standards. Shakespeare didn't have one, neither did Hemingway. These men just wrote whenever they wanted to, and now look at them.
Before I decided to be a full on writer, I just wrote like them: in whatever way I wanted to. But then I learned the hard truth about writing: everyone else can do it, even though they don't have the talent to do so. Isn't it frustrating? How you could want to write with so much passion, and then wuptidoo lookey here, someone who has connections to a publisher got their book published! How you try so hard to enter a competition you weren't even comfortable with because more people like those who won awards, and then whoooooosh! A kid who was trained by a professional won.
I'm not really bitter about writing. I love writing. It's the world that gave writing the wrong definition. Writing should be something shared freely, without rules or boundaries. I mean, I'm just fed up because I'm usually "out there" with my ideas that no one seems to understand.
If only I was born in the time when writing was an art and not a job. I'd even like to live in the time when writing was banned, but I'd still write because I love to. I write because I can't help it, but I can't be credited for it because I don't fit in with everyone's standards.
Writers read and quote this book.
(I like to be original thank you.)
Writers should write a million words a day.
(Okay maybe just a thousand, but most of us suffer writer's block)
Writers have to live through being poor or stuff like that.
(Life has already hardships. Now I have to chose to go through them?)
Writers shouldn't publish their works when submitting to a contest.
(How about us bloggers?)
But how about me? I'm just an eighteen year old girl without a mentor, who lives in the Philippines, struggling to finish college, who doesn't read Hemingway or Tolstoy, and just wants to write because if I don't I lose it.
This generation makes struggling writers like me struggle more because of nonsense definitions.
I love to read and write instead of partying or drinking. I rush to the nearest bookstore instead of the nearest sale. I've been different my whole life, always lost in a world I'm either reading or creating. I don't have anyone to relate with, but that's okay.
If that means that I should try harder, then let it be.
I am Le-an Lai Lacaba, 18 from Tacloban City, Philippines. I will be graduating from college next year, and I'm going to pursue my career as a writer. No matter what anyone says, I'm a writer. And I will sure as hell prove that.
Just a little rant. I'm just frustrated because weeks after applying for so many jobs and entering competitions, I still have nothing :(